Hello, friends. I’m so happy to announce that I’ve been accepted in radiology residency in the biggest referral hospital in the country starting next year!
Even though I’m ecstatic about this, I realize that this is just the beginning of another journey. To be honest, I’m pretty nervous about it. Scared, even. Medical school wasn’t easy, and people keep saying that residency is even worse. I try to convince myself that things will we better because I’ve recovered from my mental illness (which was diagnosed during medical school) and that I’ll be studying the thing that I love. Such a wishful thinking, I know, but if I don’t keep a certain kind of hope, I’m not sure I’ll survive!
I’ve prepared some coping mechanisms along the way, which are side-jobs such as painting and creating medical illustration, but I don’t know if I’ll have the time. I don’t know, I don’t know. The future only holds uncertainties. What we can do now is only live for the now and prepare for the worst. I don’t even know what I’m talking about anymore. Maybe a certain kind of thinking framework would help me deal with these emotions. Maybe something like stoicism would be beneficial.
Ah, yes. Stoicism. A friend of mine recommended a book on stoicism titled How to Be a Stoic: Using Ancient Philosophy to Live a Modern Life by Massimo Pigliucci. I should read that. Along with some e-books by Ryan Holiday I bought on Google Play, The Obstacle is the Way and Stillness is the Key. I’ve read Ego is the Enemy and it was good. Hope the other two are also as enlightening.
Coping mechanisms aside, I have some targets I want to achieve for this residency. I want to be a dependable resident who doesn’t slack off and is able to do her job well. I want to get good, if not astounding, grades. I want to learn AI so I can pursue a future in AI fellowship or some sort.
I should just focus on that instead of listening to everyone else saying residency is like hell. Use horse goggles. Yes. That’s it!